BBT: 97.66
Well, it's still holding...but it's down .1 from yesterday. Course, yesterday's might be high because I didn't sleep much...and sites say not to judge slight drops and rises, it's all about the coverline. Of course, this is just me doing the 2ww justifying. Explain away anything.
My boobs started to hurt more last night. Doesn't mean anything because this ties in to when I got sore boobs last cycle. I'll just be interested what happens the next three days. Sigh. Please please please. I'm praying for twins. I'm praying for my babies.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
Cycle 12: 10 dpiui boobs minimal sore, tem midline
Mornings temp: 97.7
But I did wake up at 3:30 in the morning so this one wasn't after a full night of sleep. Drank too much water and had to pee badly. Other than that...no other symptoms. Not especially tired. no cramps. Oh, I'm trying to hang in there. I was feeling really hopeless the past couple days. Just reading the probability and percentages just depressed me.
I'm trying desperately to cling to just a little hope. It's not over until it's over. We're going on a trip in 6 weeks and my husband is trying to figure out alternatives because he had amusement parks on our visit. He says "Oh, we'll have to do something else instead because you'll be pregnant by then." I just sighed. Oh, I want to have faith. I just want to stop putting my life on hold and living that way.
So I figure...by studying the cycles...that most likely, I can probably test on Monday which will be 13 dpiui. I'll be praying that my temps stay up. Since I don't have symptoms I hope that it is just because sometimes the baby doesn't implant until 10 after ovulation. Get in there baby. Oh, I'm praying for twins. Get in there babies.
I haven't been praying much. Guess I kind of thought it wasn't really making a difference. I'm praying now.
But I did wake up at 3:30 in the morning so this one wasn't after a full night of sleep. Drank too much water and had to pee badly. Other than that...no other symptoms. Not especially tired. no cramps. Oh, I'm trying to hang in there. I was feeling really hopeless the past couple days. Just reading the probability and percentages just depressed me.
I'm trying desperately to cling to just a little hope. It's not over until it's over. We're going on a trip in 6 weeks and my husband is trying to figure out alternatives because he had amusement parks on our visit. He says "Oh, we'll have to do something else instead because you'll be pregnant by then." I just sighed. Oh, I want to have faith. I just want to stop putting my life on hold and living that way.
So I figure...by studying the cycles...that most likely, I can probably test on Monday which will be 13 dpiui. I'll be praying that my temps stay up. Since I don't have symptoms I hope that it is just because sometimes the baby doesn't implant until 10 after ovulation. Get in there baby. Oh, I'm praying for twins. Get in there babies.
I haven't been praying much. Guess I kind of thought it wasn't really making a difference. I'm praying now.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Cycle 12: 8 dpiui #1
So yesterday, I felt really hopeless. Just reading the statistics on how long it takes to get pregnant using IUI....my only hope is that just the fact that I'm on my fourth cycle of clomid gives me a better chance.
So, at day 8 past IUI, I figure I have another four days to wait until I can reasonable pee on a stick test.
I've read a lot of other blogs and people can pee test every day from 9 days until whenever...I don't know how they do it. Those tests just cost so much money, it adds up. They're like gold to me.
So I mainly want to document the sore boobies. Now with clomid, I get the sore BB's right before my AF and they stop hurting a day or two before AF arrives. I just want to figure out when they start. They don't seem as sensitive today or yesterday as they did on 6 dpiui. I feel like an insane person as I grope myself to figure out if they hurt. The left side always hurts more...the right side doesn't feel anything today. That's how it was when I got pregnant the first time.
I finally went to teh store yesterday and got some caffeine free coke. I've been drinking coke like there's no tomorrow...so bad. So, i finally got some caffeine free which tastes the same to me. I worked out last night for the first time in like three weeks. I sprained my ankle after trying to start exercising after three months of nothingness and eating out. Today, I'm heavier than yesterday. I know that happens so I'm not too surprised. I'll just keep at it and I'll know that it will pay off.
I'm watching Jail. Man I feel so bad for police officers. They have crazy tough jobs.
So, at day 8 past IUI, I figure I have another four days to wait until I can reasonable pee on a stick test.
I've read a lot of other blogs and people can pee test every day from 9 days until whenever...I don't know how they do it. Those tests just cost so much money, it adds up. They're like gold to me.
So I mainly want to document the sore boobies. Now with clomid, I get the sore BB's right before my AF and they stop hurting a day or two before AF arrives. I just want to figure out when they start. They don't seem as sensitive today or yesterday as they did on 6 dpiui. I feel like an insane person as I grope myself to figure out if they hurt. The left side always hurts more...the right side doesn't feel anything today. That's how it was when I got pregnant the first time.
I finally went to teh store yesterday and got some caffeine free coke. I've been drinking coke like there's no tomorrow...so bad. So, i finally got some caffeine free which tastes the same to me. I worked out last night for the first time in like three weeks. I sprained my ankle after trying to start exercising after three months of nothingness and eating out. Today, I'm heavier than yesterday. I know that happens so I'm not too surprised. I'll just keep at it and I'll know that it will pay off.
I'm watching Jail. Man I feel so bad for police officers. They have crazy tough jobs.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Cycle 12: 7 dpiui
So I'm at day seven after my first IUI.
I feel hopeless and I'm only halfway through the two weeks waiting. googled "7 dpiui" and the two blogs that came up were posts that were two years ago. Both are pregnant now...two years after the IUI. Then I read that the success rate of IUI are only 10-20% so getting pregnant on your first IUI is really rare.
What utterly depressing research. My thermometer is broken so I can't even track my basal body temperature. I'm really praying that this is IT...this is the cycle...so I don't have to try to get a good BBT thermometer for another cycle...the shipping takes too long and costs money. I think I'll try the local store tonight and check if they have.
At least my cold seems to be gone. All the sleep kept me so rested that I stayed up til 5 am and I had to wake up at 8 am. Still feeling really awake, no doubt having slept for like sixteen hours yesterday. Only thing left is my sore throat.
I went to the blood lab today to get my progesterone checked. They were confused since my gyno never put in an order and she was out for the day. so I sat there for 30 minutes trying to fight the urge to cough (remnants of my cold) until they told me they would try to get ahold of her tomorrow and call me to come in. I didn't mind. I had a good book and love to read.
I feel hopeless and I'm only halfway through the two weeks waiting. googled "7 dpiui" and the two blogs that came up were posts that were two years ago. Both are pregnant now...two years after the IUI. Then I read that the success rate of IUI are only 10-20% so getting pregnant on your first IUI is really rare.
What utterly depressing research. My thermometer is broken so I can't even track my basal body temperature. I'm really praying that this is IT...this is the cycle...so I don't have to try to get a good BBT thermometer for another cycle...the shipping takes too long and costs money. I think I'll try the local store tonight and check if they have.
At least my cold seems to be gone. All the sleep kept me so rested that I stayed up til 5 am and I had to wake up at 8 am. Still feeling really awake, no doubt having slept for like sixteen hours yesterday. Only thing left is my sore throat.
I went to the blood lab today to get my progesterone checked. They were confused since my gyno never put in an order and she was out for the day. so I sat there for 30 minutes trying to fight the urge to cough (remnants of my cold) until they told me they would try to get ahold of her tomorrow and call me to come in. I didn't mind. I had a good book and love to read.
6 dpiui
Is it only six days? Oh geez, I haven't even gone through week 1 of the 2 week waiting. I've been sick so I've been sleeping nonstop for the past two days. I haven't been taking my temperature because my thermometer battery has officially died. I miss my thermometer. We have two others but they're not basal body temp thermometers and they give me funky readings. Like one says I have a temp of 97.3 no matter what time I take it.
My boobs have begun to get sore...which at this early stage is most likely the result of the progesterone increase. It comes early and then disappears right before my period so I always have known when my cycles are a bust. However, I thought I should document it so I know better when to expect teh sore boobies to appear.
I'm also super tired but that goes along with the sore throat from my cold. Too early for any possible pregnancy symptoms. I know babies don't implant until like 10 dpo so pregnancy symptoms won't start until well after that.
I'm going to test at 12 dpo so I figure I'm halfway there. sheesh.
So today, I watched Jon and Kate announce they are separated and the note says that they filed for a divorce. I'm not a big fan of Kate. My sister loves Kate. I think Kate is an amazing mom and woman, just not a great wife. The best advice I got before marriage is to be your husband's biggest cheerleader. Kate is the perfect example of how to do the complete opposite. I always thought they worked great as a team but in their interviews, she put him down in a condescending way "Oh, Jon doesn't do that and Jon doesn't do this" like he was the ninth child. And he would just shrug his shoulders and say "Yah, I'm not good at this and that" and he didn't hesitate to praise Kate "Kate is really good at this and that." I read a newspaper commentary by a man who was irritated at the way Kate berated Jon but angered that Jon just took it. Yah, I think that is where Jon let his marriage get out of control...well, under Kate's control.
Still it made me think about my desire to have kids. When I've gotten super depressed or stressed by my journey, my hubby has said that he feels like I care about having kids more than him. He asks "Wouldn't you be happy if it was just you and me?" And the answer for him is yes. he really wants kids and he prays for children every night as we go to bed. But if God didn't give us kids, Scott would still feel really blessed with just the two of us. I can't say I share that feeling. I've always know i would be a mom, I wanted like ten kids. Now I just want to start with one.
It's obvious Kate loves her kids. They are her life...did she forget about the husband part. she talks about the kids being everything she lives for but I've never heard her express that kind of devotion about her husband. When did Jon get left on the side? How can I not go down that road? i always think I'll be a great mom but a better wife! But I just want to get started on that journey first.
My boobs have begun to get sore...which at this early stage is most likely the result of the progesterone increase. It comes early and then disappears right before my period so I always have known when my cycles are a bust. However, I thought I should document it so I know better when to expect teh sore boobies to appear.
I'm also super tired but that goes along with the sore throat from my cold. Too early for any possible pregnancy symptoms. I know babies don't implant until like 10 dpo so pregnancy symptoms won't start until well after that.
I'm going to test at 12 dpo so I figure I'm halfway there. sheesh.
So today, I watched Jon and Kate announce they are separated and the note says that they filed for a divorce. I'm not a big fan of Kate. My sister loves Kate. I think Kate is an amazing mom and woman, just not a great wife. The best advice I got before marriage is to be your husband's biggest cheerleader. Kate is the perfect example of how to do the complete opposite. I always thought they worked great as a team but in their interviews, she put him down in a condescending way "Oh, Jon doesn't do that and Jon doesn't do this" like he was the ninth child. And he would just shrug his shoulders and say "Yah, I'm not good at this and that" and he didn't hesitate to praise Kate "Kate is really good at this and that." I read a newspaper commentary by a man who was irritated at the way Kate berated Jon but angered that Jon just took it. Yah, I think that is where Jon let his marriage get out of control...well, under Kate's control.
Still it made me think about my desire to have kids. When I've gotten super depressed or stressed by my journey, my hubby has said that he feels like I care about having kids more than him. He asks "Wouldn't you be happy if it was just you and me?" And the answer for him is yes. he really wants kids and he prays for children every night as we go to bed. But if God didn't give us kids, Scott would still feel really blessed with just the two of us. I can't say I share that feeling. I've always know i would be a mom, I wanted like ten kids. Now I just want to start with one.
It's obvious Kate loves her kids. They are her life...did she forget about the husband part. she talks about the kids being everything she lives for but I've never heard her express that kind of devotion about her husband. When did Jon get left on the side? How can I not go down that road? i always think I'll be a great mom but a better wife! But I just want to get started on that journey first.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Cycle 12 Day 17: 3 days past IUI
If you're new to fertility and Trying To Conceive blogs, you'll see 2WW. The 2 weeks waiting between ovulation and the time you can start to detect whether your cycle has a success or failed. And this is when I blog the most. To get me through the days that slowly creep by.
Although I'm real hopeful about the IUI, we certainly didn't try much at all besides the IUI. Just being busy and exhausted. So all my hope is in the IUI. I'm not really beating myself up about it, it's in the past and the IUI sounds like it is a lot more efficient.
The one big relief about getting past my ovulation day is the effect it has on my sleep. I chart my body temperature and take a pee test every morning to test when I might be ovulating. Of course, I'm too scared to miss a day because I didn't want to miss my short window. And I always have to pee...it's what wakes me up. So, I've been waking up at 5:30 am...even on my days off...with the urge to pee. Normally, I would run to the bathroom and slip back in to bed to fall right back to sleep. Not when I'm charting. Instead, I have to fumble around in the dark for my thermometer that I have in a drawer by my bed. I try not to move that much since after you wake up, your body temperature will rise after a few minutes. And moving around can raise it quickly. Then I lie there waiting for what seems like an eternity for the beep that means the thermometer has a temperature reading. So many times, I've dozed off...only to have to wake up and start over. Then I can finally get up, grab the ovulation monitor kit and run to the bathroom.
I was so exhausted... from just waking up so early no matter how late I stayed up...that two days ago...I came home from work and slept for six hours.
So I'm three days past IUI. I usually start my period at about 12 days after ovulationg. So I'm looking at another nine days give or take. Hopefully, I'll be distracted. Another TTC blog that I follow...Pregnant. And Jacqueline, the housewife on Bravo's Real Housewives of NJ, who has been open about her struggles to have another baby. Pregnant. I just read on her blog that she's going to deliver this week. Oh, let there be a wave, and let me be on it!!!
Although I'm real hopeful about the IUI, we certainly didn't try much at all besides the IUI. Just being busy and exhausted. So all my hope is in the IUI. I'm not really beating myself up about it, it's in the past and the IUI sounds like it is a lot more efficient.
The one big relief about getting past my ovulation day is the effect it has on my sleep. I chart my body temperature and take a pee test every morning to test when I might be ovulating. Of course, I'm too scared to miss a day because I didn't want to miss my short window. And I always have to pee...it's what wakes me up. So, I've been waking up at 5:30 am...even on my days off...with the urge to pee. Normally, I would run to the bathroom and slip back in to bed to fall right back to sleep. Not when I'm charting. Instead, I have to fumble around in the dark for my thermometer that I have in a drawer by my bed. I try not to move that much since after you wake up, your body temperature will rise after a few minutes. And moving around can raise it quickly. Then I lie there waiting for what seems like an eternity for the beep that means the thermometer has a temperature reading. So many times, I've dozed off...only to have to wake up and start over. Then I can finally get up, grab the ovulation monitor kit and run to the bathroom.
I was so exhausted... from just waking up so early no matter how late I stayed up...that two days ago...I came home from work and slept for six hours.
So I'm three days past IUI. I usually start my period at about 12 days after ovulationg. So I'm looking at another nine days give or take. Hopefully, I'll be distracted. Another TTC blog that I follow...Pregnant. And Jacqueline, the housewife on Bravo's Real Housewives of NJ, who has been open about her struggles to have another baby. Pregnant. I just read on her blog that she's going to deliver this week. Oh, let there be a wave, and let me be on it!!!
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
IUI-Day 0
So last month was a wash. I had a HSG where they inject dye into your tubes to check for blockages. I was told by my doctor that this would be a great month to try because the chances of conceiving seem to increase slightly for cycles with HSG. Something about the tubes being all opened up. But my family came to visit right around that crucial fertile time and brought huge drama...like crying for days and everyone calling each other four times a day to talk about what to do. Let's just say, my hubby and I had no time at all and nothing happened in the baby department. I was pretty bitter after my family finally left. One, because I'm mad at my dad for his issues...and two, because they affected my life and hindered something I've been dreaming about. So, I wasn't really surprised when my period came and I'm on to this cycle.
I started month four of clomid and I know my doc said that she doesn't keep people on it for longer than six months. Your uterine lining gets thinner and thinner which is not condusive for babies. So I was wondering what the other options would be. I subscribe to other infertility blogs and in the past month, two of them have gotten pregnant...one with IUI and one with IVF. Hey, these methods work and made me really hopeful. So I asked my doc if we could be more aggressive for cycle 5 of clomid and she asked if I wanted to try an IUI this round. Sure...anything that even slightly betters our chances.
So, I was a little nervewracking about the timing of it all. She said to call the clinic when i had a positive ovulation test and schedule it for the next day. She said if the ovulation test was positive on a Sunday, not to worry, the egg would be okay for a few days. But i didn't really believe that, I've read that the egg is only good for 24 hours...so if by some small chance I ovulated on Sunday...called the clinic on Monday and had the IUI on tuesday, I might have missed my chance. I was praying praying praying. I got the positive ovulation test on Monday (yesterday)...oh thank goodness.
My husband has to give a sample of his ...ummm, genetic contribution to the lab a few hours before my IUI. THe instructions read that he should give his sample to the lab thirty minutes after collection. He has a different insurance so the gyno had given us a collection vial two weeks ago...but I asked the clinic if they had any special rooms he could go in. They said " There are restrooms on the floor." Um, never mind. So we had to just rush from our house to the clinic to make the thirty minutes. And we hit traffic because of an accident...oh, just our luck. I was clutching the vial in my sweaty hand because the instructions said to keep it at room or body temperature. I felt like rolling down my window, waving it outside the window, and screaming at the slow moving cars to get out of the way "We Got Sperm Here!!!"
i was scared about the IUI because I've heard there can be cramping and bleeding. And I hated the HSG...HATED IT!!! I felt like I had been put through a grater. The IUI was awesome. She said that my cervix was open so I shouldn't feel anything. She was also impressed by my husband's sample after the lab was finished. Oh, pretty please. They injected the sperm and then had me lie there in the room for fiteen minutes. I read a book (I love reading...they could have kept me there for an hour if they wanted) and in my mind, I was urging the sperm on.
TMI to follow: I love the IUI because its so much easier than sex. No worrying about using sperm-friendly lubricant that I had to buy from the internet. No having to lie there still for twenty minutes trying to resist the urge to pee. And I know that we got the sperm halfway through their journey and past the more difficult and dangerous part of their journey. Go find the egg!!! get em!!! Oh, it would be awesome if there were two eggs...I would love twins. Of the two fertility blogs that just found out they are pregnant, one had a vanishing twin and the other one has two gestational sacs.
I started month four of clomid and I know my doc said that she doesn't keep people on it for longer than six months. Your uterine lining gets thinner and thinner which is not condusive for babies. So I was wondering what the other options would be. I subscribe to other infertility blogs and in the past month, two of them have gotten pregnant...one with IUI and one with IVF. Hey, these methods work and made me really hopeful. So I asked my doc if we could be more aggressive for cycle 5 of clomid and she asked if I wanted to try an IUI this round. Sure...anything that even slightly betters our chances.
So, I was a little nervewracking about the timing of it all. She said to call the clinic when i had a positive ovulation test and schedule it for the next day. She said if the ovulation test was positive on a Sunday, not to worry, the egg would be okay for a few days. But i didn't really believe that, I've read that the egg is only good for 24 hours...so if by some small chance I ovulated on Sunday...called the clinic on Monday and had the IUI on tuesday, I might have missed my chance. I was praying praying praying. I got the positive ovulation test on Monday (yesterday)...oh thank goodness.
My husband has to give a sample of his ...ummm, genetic contribution to the lab a few hours before my IUI. THe instructions read that he should give his sample to the lab thirty minutes after collection. He has a different insurance so the gyno had given us a collection vial two weeks ago...but I asked the clinic if they had any special rooms he could go in. They said " There are restrooms on the floor." Um, never mind. So we had to just rush from our house to the clinic to make the thirty minutes. And we hit traffic because of an accident...oh, just our luck. I was clutching the vial in my sweaty hand because the instructions said to keep it at room or body temperature. I felt like rolling down my window, waving it outside the window, and screaming at the slow moving cars to get out of the way "We Got Sperm Here!!!"
i was scared about the IUI because I've heard there can be cramping and bleeding. And I hated the HSG...HATED IT!!! I felt like I had been put through a grater. The IUI was awesome. She said that my cervix was open so I shouldn't feel anything. She was also impressed by my husband's sample after the lab was finished. Oh, pretty please. They injected the sperm and then had me lie there in the room for fiteen minutes. I read a book (I love reading...they could have kept me there for an hour if they wanted) and in my mind, I was urging the sperm on.
TMI to follow: I love the IUI because its so much easier than sex. No worrying about using sperm-friendly lubricant that I had to buy from the internet. No having to lie there still for twenty minutes trying to resist the urge to pee. And I know that we got the sperm halfway through their journey and past the more difficult and dangerous part of their journey. Go find the egg!!! get em!!! Oh, it would be awesome if there were two eggs...I would love twins. Of the two fertility blogs that just found out they are pregnant, one had a vanishing twin and the other one has two gestational sacs.
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