Today temp: 96.56
Nice and low pre ovulation temp. I just am praying for ovulation. I want it to come now so I'm not concerned about my ability to ovulate.
i'm also really frustrated with Kaiser and it's lack of response. Doc says she has to wait for all our blood tests results before she can even submit a request for me to see the IVF specialist. This after having to wait a month to take tests on day 3 of my cycle...something they failed to tell me on the previous cycle. It's driving me crazy. I can't wait to next year...I'm switching out of Kaiser. I now understand why people don't like it.
I'm convinced I have PCOS but I can't talk to anyone about it. I never had an ultrasound or other tests that people seem to regularly get with their TTC efforts. And now I'm going for IVF...I feel like a lot more should have been done before this drastic point. Trying not to stress but I just want to get this...I've been reading blogs. All the people who said they were going for IVF at the same time I made my decision are now halfway through their IVF process. And I'm still waiting. I HATE THIS.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Cycle 15: Natural, CD 13 No peak yet
Today's temp: 96.98
Hmm, I didn't go to sleep until 4 and woke up at six and took my temp. So it might be a litttle higher than normal.
Mood: Worried
My ovulation kit is still testing low fertility and I'm already on day 13. I know this weird to say but it's hard to keep have BD every night. It's a lot of pressure. I don't get home from work until almost midnight and hubby is always tired.
Last night, I looked up the signs of PCOS
missing or irregular periods (negative---I have pretty consistent periods)
heavy periods (negative---I have very light periods)
excessive facial and body hair (postive)
receding hair (positive)
acne (positive)
So i read up that the best thing to do is to lose weight...although I'm not considered too overweight to have it be a worry. They usually give clomid, which I tried. And watching sugars that would spike my insulin. Insulin which can cause my ovaries to produce too much testosterone. Hmmm, I drink 2-3 sodas a day.
I've decided if anything can make me give up soda...it would be wanting a baby. Today, just one soda. Thus it starts. I wish I had started this 10 months ago. I'm convinced I would have bettered my chances.
Hmm, I didn't go to sleep until 4 and woke up at six and took my temp. So it might be a litttle higher than normal.
Mood: Worried
My ovulation kit is still testing low fertility and I'm already on day 13. I know this weird to say but it's hard to keep have BD every night. It's a lot of pressure. I don't get home from work until almost midnight and hubby is always tired.
Last night, I looked up the signs of PCOS
missing or irregular periods (negative---I have pretty consistent periods)
heavy periods (negative---I have very light periods)
excessive facial and body hair (postive)
receding hair (positive)
acne (positive)
So i read up that the best thing to do is to lose weight...although I'm not considered too overweight to have it be a worry. They usually give clomid, which I tried. And watching sugars that would spike my insulin. Insulin which can cause my ovaries to produce too much testosterone. Hmmm, I drink 2-3 sodas a day.
I've decided if anything can make me give up soda...it would be wanting a baby. Today, just one soda. Thus it starts. I wish I had started this 10 months ago. I'm convinced I would have bettered my chances.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Cycle 15: Natural Cycle CD 15
Today's temp: 96.99 but I was up for a little bit rolling around so I think that's higher than it should be
The nurse form the doc's office did call about my blood tests. Apparently my prolactin levels are elevated. She didn't know what prolactin is and she had to look up. She was a little confused and told me it was related to menstrual cycles and pregnancy. Well, I'm not pregnant. I looked it up. It's a stress hormone which stressed me out because I don't feel I have a stressful life. So, now I'm stressing on how I can address it since I already feel mellow. It can also just be a biological function.
This cycle is tough because hubby and I already feel discouraged. We found out on Sunday that two women we know at church are pg and are due in March. Then two days ago, we got a phone call...another couple...expecting...baby in march. then last night at bible study, we hit another bombshell when a young couple announced they are pg and due in March. We've shared over a year ago that we were trying and we kind of stopped talking about it. At that time, they both proclaimed loudly that they weren't ready and it would be a long time. I was super excited for them but I think this morning it kind of hit me. I can't make sense of anything. You stop hoping at some point because every month it doesn't happen for you, but happens for other. For those keeping count, in the last three weeks, we have learned seven of our friends pg, all due in March. Yup, seven. It's hard to even be optimistic about this cycle.
I want to change health insurance already. I thought we could be moving towards IVF but they're not even done with the blood tests that we need to get approved to go see the IVF specialist. This is so sucky. Hmmm, three week wait begins.
The nurse form the doc's office did call about my blood tests. Apparently my prolactin levels are elevated. She didn't know what prolactin is and she had to look up. She was a little confused and told me it was related to menstrual cycles and pregnancy. Well, I'm not pregnant. I looked it up. It's a stress hormone which stressed me out because I don't feel I have a stressful life. So, now I'm stressing on how I can address it since I already feel mellow. It can also just be a biological function.
This cycle is tough because hubby and I already feel discouraged. We found out on Sunday that two women we know at church are pg and are due in March. Then two days ago, we got a phone call...another couple...expecting...baby in march. then last night at bible study, we hit another bombshell when a young couple announced they are pg and due in March. We've shared over a year ago that we were trying and we kind of stopped talking about it. At that time, they both proclaimed loudly that they weren't ready and it would be a long time. I was super excited for them but I think this morning it kind of hit me. I can't make sense of anything. You stop hoping at some point because every month it doesn't happen for you, but happens for other. For those keeping count, in the last three weeks, we have learned seven of our friends pg, all due in March. Yup, seven. It's hard to even be optimistic about this cycle.
I want to change health insurance already. I thought we could be moving towards IVF but they're not even done with the blood tests that we need to get approved to go see the IVF specialist. This is so sucky. Hmmm, three week wait begins.
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