11w2d I can do this!!!!

My short-lived mild days of nausea ended abruptly and I was back to being worse than ever. I couldn't even sleep because it was so bad. I went in to the OB today and I was counting down the hours until I saw her and hopefully would get new medicine. According to the doctor's scale, my weight is down to 174.0 lb, which is 11 lb down from my start weight. whoa, I may have to weigh myself at home to make sure because that's a little scary. 11 lb in 5 weeks!! I hope not. Then the doc proceeded to give me a kind but firm scolding for not eating. How am I supposed to eat when I've tried everything and nothing works. I mean yesterday, I had two rolls of bread for breakfast and promptly threw that up. I had half a large french fries from LnL as my only other food of the day and fought all night to keep that down. I didn't chance eating anything more. Thankfully, she had no problem giving me a prescription for Zof.ran which is strong than the Reg.lan I was on. And even though I have tried everything on the list of suggestions, she had a few more like just snacking on dry cereal that I agreed to try.

I was surprised when she busted out the ultrasound machine. I didn't think they had one...they sent me to a different clinic for ultrasounds. She said they just can't do ultrasounds normally because they just don't have the time to give everyone ultrasounds. I wonder if I just qualify because I'm high risk. I got to see the babes again although they weren't moving. That's sad, I really get joy out of seeing the little gummy bear dance. She printed out pictures although I must say, I thought they looked cuter last week. Their heads seem so elongated and pointy that it looks weird. she assured me it was just the angle. Their heartrates
Shadrach=172 bpm
Meschach= 192 bpm (the squashed twin)
Abednego=162 bpm (the single fraternal)

Then I got my prescription filled and made an appointment to come back in two weeks. I'm seeing the specialist next week so I am seeing a doctor every week it seems.

On the way to the car, I started gagging and heaving and panicking as I realized the parking lot was full and there was no safe place to possibly throw up. So, I leaned against my car and dry heaved between cars. It was so embarrasing, people were walking by and I'm sure I looked disgusting. I seriouslly didn't think I could get out of there. I spent about ten minutes sitting in the car hanging out the door choking and gagging before I was able to breathe through it.

Zo.fran I took it and immediately felt better...enough to finally go sleep. I take it twice a day so I'm not sure how to space it out yet. I took it before minichurch but still felt on the verge of gagging the whole night. I forced myself to eat some diluted saimin noodles and actually made my way to work.

The fun part was we finally went public with the news. Scott made a cute blog with ultrasound pictures (he swore he would never show ultrasound pictures ha ha ha) and we posted it on facebook. So coming in to work was great because I don't have to feel shame about hiding why I'm always calling in sick. It's so nice to share but keeping it in for so long is probably making us overshare. I notice Scott loves to talk about it no matter who we are with. I like start to cry when I think of Scott. He went hunting at different stores for different candies with ginger in them since I hate ginger (we're trying to find something I like). He packed my food for tonight since I don't like to be around the smell of food. he washes all the dishes and cleans the house, does the laundry. And still, he's so excited everytime he comes home and sees me. I keep thinking he is going to grow to resent me but he really is doing it all out of love.