Cycle 15: Natural Cycle CD 15

Today's temp: 96.99 but I was up for a little bit rolling around so I think that's higher than it should be

The nurse form the doc's office did call about my blood tests. Apparently my prolactin levels are elevated. She didn't know what prolactin is and she had to look up. She was a little confused and told me it was related to menstrual cycles and pregnancy. Well, I'm not pregnant. I looked it up. It's a stress hormone which stressed me out because I don't feel I have a stressful life. So, now I'm stressing on how I can address it since I already feel mellow. It can also just be a biological function.

This cycle is tough because hubby and I already feel discouraged. We found out on Sunday that two women we know at church are pg and are due in March. Then two days ago, we got a phone call...another couple...expecting...baby in march. then last night at bible study, we hit another bombshell when a young couple announced they are pg and due in March. We've shared over a year ago that we were trying and we kind of stopped talking about it. At that time, they both proclaimed loudly that they weren't ready and it would be a long time. I was super excited for them but I think this morning it kind of hit me. I can't make sense of anything. You stop hoping at some point because every month it doesn't happen for you, but happens for other. For those keeping count, in the last three weeks, we have learned seven of our friends pg, all due in March. Yup, seven. It's hard to even be optimistic about this cycle.

I want to change health insurance already. I thought we could be moving towards IVF but they're not even done with the blood tests that we need to get approved to go see the IVF specialist. This is so sucky. Hmmm, three week wait begins.